Kiksun

After the elections in Slovakia, new governemnt has been formed and ... of course there is only one female minister in it. Yes yes..what else can I add?

Sometimes there is a guy sitting in a wheel chair on the corner of the street which I pass on my way to work.. It happens that he sits there for the whole day..
When I first time saw him sitting there I thought he was waiting for someone to pick him up. When I saw him after some hours when going home from work still at the same place, I thought it was strange that he had spent there the whole day. There is just a crossroad view, many cars..
My friend told me that he sits there very often just like that. I accepted the fact and just for a while wondered why. Some other day when i was passing the place, he was there again. He caught my sight and said "hi". He apprantly noticed that I also appear there rather often and on rather regular basis. Yes..i said hi back. And then many times when i saw him. Today he looked very happy and except saying hi, he wished me a nice day. And I smiled =) I do not know why does he sit there, but if it is only for saying hi and wishing nice day to passers by, it has a sense. I think i will stop next time when I meet him..
..there is just a crossroad view, many cars and passers by..

By writing the thesis i always happen to reach some very strange state of mind which makes me..

- to miss my floor when taking stairs to come home and to stop only when I find out that there are no more stairs to take (lucky me that I do not live on Eifel tower)

- to pass a transit area at the airport and to find myself at the luggage pick - up place where I realize that I do not have my luggage there cause it is just changing flights and flying further exactly as I am supposed to do - so I better go back to transit area..

- to leave keys in the lock right after opening the door and then to search for them for some time..

I found out that:

- it is much more fun to watch football VM
- it is much nicer to go out for a short bike ride
- a chocolate tastes better
- it is greater pleasure to write a blog
- I enjoy much more 20 minutes nap
- it is much more interesting to surf internet
- there are more interesting TV series
- etc..

...when I have to write thesis and I do not have spare time for any other things at all..

I have got a present from a friend of mine and now I am singing the song all the time:

Sunshine /Gabrielle
Made a wish, I can dream
I can be what I want to be
Not afraid to live my life
And fulfil my fantasies

I learnt a lot of tricks to help me live my life
You helped me find my paradise
When you came I saw

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

Reaching out, for the highs
You inspired me to try
I felt the magic inside
And I felt that I could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
'Cos when you came you were my

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

You are the calm
I am the storm
You are the breeze that carries me on
When I said a truth
You wink at me
You're there for me

Sunshine (oh yeah)
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star

(Sunshine) Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine
My star, my star..

No I do not have crash on anybody as you could think..BUT I have seen THE movie. Finally I´ve got to see CRASH. And I just loved the movie. It made me think.

It made me think about people and how many difficulties we have to understand each other. We all have our own truth, our own reasons, experience which all together justify our behaviour. Or not?

It made me think about fear and the fence which the fear builts around our hearts until we do not feel anything. Or maybe is the fence a reason of the only available emotion  - fear. (I somehow vote for the first alternative)

It made me think about goodluck and badluck, about coinsidence..How much of our lives is a considence actually? And how much do we influence? How much influence we have on life of people coming after us?

How much of our future do we "sacrifice" for actual pleasure? Or maybe the other way around?

I definitely rate that movie as the best movie I have seen during the last two years. I did not laugh, I did not cry but I was impressed and found a faith in everyday course of events.

I am sitting at home. It is almost midnight, relatively light outside, Enya is playing and I feel just peace and staidness. Yes..here and now I do feel it. I look some days back. Midsommer evening which from the weather point of view didn´t seem like summer, many nice people around smiling and laughing in spite of the weather, late night talk and games, strawberries, real fun and crazyness, football, stress, lots of work, rush, emotions...hush.  And I just wonder. Life is just one swaying swing  and you either realize that you have joined it or maybe not being aware of it, but you have joined for sure.

One year ago I was watching a butterfly. Wind was just drifting the butterfly and the butterfly was moving its wings. And I was wonderig how much that movement helps. Where was the difference between a falling leaf carried by wind and the "flying" butterfly?
I do not have a scientific explanation but I have my own answer. Butterfly tried. The little being tried to direct its movement for whatever reasons (survival, instinct, whatever..)
And it brings me back to metaphor "life like a swing". We are part of the movement regardless our will. And we either can do something with it or not. Or at least try and feel that we try! And we never know when the wind calms down and we just use its energy to find our own way...

Everybody writing about football championship..I think it is my turn also. I have never been huge football fan. I do not know names of the players, I do not remember what years and where the previous championships were. I just know Owen cause I think he is cute and I saw him playing in 1998 when I was watching chamionship under some special circumstances. However I like playing football when it comes to that. I better prefer doing some sport than to watch it. Of course I do watch sport from time to time but not on regular base I can say.

This year - being in Sweden I became a part of the football fever, being with friends, discussing the game and the players of course, eating popcorn, not writing thesis..

Yesterday I watched the match Sweden against Germany. The result is not important to me at all. I really do not care who´s gonna win. I was watching the behaviour of players. And from now on everything I m going to write isn´t concerning just football but many other sports as well.

The players when losing (either personal fight with the oponent player or as a team) started behaving as they do not have any limits in hurting someone. Kicking on purpose when a player has jumped and is high in the air..one never knows how will the player land and if he or she will be able to stand up. Running in full speed into a player from back side..HEJ!!! That´s dangerous!!!! I play handball myself and I know that however well a player can be trained and muscles are strong - to be pushed from back side when unexpected it can end very very bad!!! Each player knows this and that´s why I get even more upset when I see the satisfaction in the face of the one who has done it.  I just had feeling that the game was not a game anymore. I didnt see an effort to go over personal limits and try harder although the opponent was better at the moment. I didnt see joy from the game.

Another interesting "discovery" were the reactions of people watching the game. How can anybody laugh about the fact that one player pushed another one when the referree didnt see it? That´s malicious. And at the same time to be really upset when the same thing happens to a player of "your" team. Where is the difference? To be honest..I was a bit sad when I saw it.

Maybe I take those things too seriously but I think that health of people should be taken seriously.

I really liked all those blogs when the football championship started about friendship regardless nationality, about common interests and common goal - to see nice game! And I stil wanna see nice game, movement, nice (fair!)  tricks with ball based on one´s skills and not on one´s deceit.

I´ve cried today. I´ve received a ppt from a friend. It was about differences in the world. About complaining about softness of the bed while there are people who do not have bed, about complaining about food while there are people who do not have any food, about complaining about trade mark of the clothes while others do not have clothes etc)
I can say that most of the time I am aware of different conditions we live in and I am thankful for what I have. When I have to study late in the night awareness of my situation keeps me awake and do what I can. Being aware of the fact that I CAN work in the days and therefore study in the nights and that I CAN do it gives me strenght. There are people who do not have this option although they would love to.

But back to the ppt. Although I am aware of that I do complain sometimes. About food, about dirt, about the quality of my mp3 player, slow computer, boring TV programme, mobile phone not fancy enough...grrr!!! Yes maybe it is natural that people (including me) wanna progress, that they follow development around them, that we are part of a huge wave which is just pushing new things, improvement and I am not against it...BUT...not on the expense of somebody else or on expense of the world. That really makes me cry. Egoism makes me cry. My own as well. So please..shut me up when I am complaining about smth irrelevant.

Oooh..it is raining agaaiiiiinnn..nooo. Ooooh...it is so hoooooot!!!! Aaah..they do not have my favourite chocolate! Aaah..Please count to ten before you complain. I will do that also.

Following facts are taken from the book: Earth from the Air (by Yann Arthus - Bertrand)
- World population: 
1800 - 1 billion
1960 - 3 billion
2000 - 6 billion
2050 - 9 billion

-4% of the wealth of the world´s 225 most wealthy families would provide access to basic needs and fundamental health care, education and nutrition for the world

- Over 1 billion people lack basic, decent shelter

- On avarage, an American uses 600 litres of water per day, a European 250 and an African 30.

- 20%population does not have access to safe drinking water

-People living in rich countries, a mere 20% of the total human population, eat 45% of meat and fish consumed throughout the world.

- Half of humanity lives on less than 2 USD per day

Yes..and when I read those facts, I hear lyrics of NO NAME (a slovak music group) -  "If everyone would want to have a bit less, all of us would have more". I think it is suitable...
                                   

There was a last part of "Friends" some days ago. It was kind of sad although they will show them in TV again and again. I am sure about it. But the feeling that they won´t be a regular part of my days made the last part even more emotional to me. (maybe strange to talk like that about TV serie? hmm)  And that made me think. Is it always needed to make an "offical" last part of the TV serie? And announce that it will be  the last one? Wouldn´t it be easier just not to show more parts next days?